just like my so-called relationship, this is the end for this blog. as painful as it is, i need to let go of certain things in my life.

message me in ym if you want to know my new blog address. thanks.

don't get me wrong, i still feel blessed that i was given this opportunity.  but now i'm also feeling the down side of everything.

i now realize that no matter how many times i explained something, there are people who just won't get it.  and if they misunderstood something you said, you will be quoted and tell everyone that you explained it incorrectly. i now found out what my friends actually meant before when they told me, "be nice to your trainees. hindi lahat ng tao kasing-talino mo."

and lastly, i'm now discovering that it is hard to balance a successful career and a healthy relationship.  somebody help me. nahihirapan ako. :(

it seems so unreal.. but i think i was the only one doubting myself all along. i tried to keep quiet about it just so it won't be that much embarrassing or disappointing if i failed. but i didn't fail- i actually got the position. unbelievable. :)

im finding it hard to believe not because i think i lack the abilities, but because it was a really tough competition. i had to psyche myself up that no matter how good i think i am, i cant always get what i want. i guess i had luck on my side this time.

im so touched with how much support and encouragement i got from my family, my supervisor, team mates, friends and ken. it's just so overwhelming to hear how much they believe in me. honestly, i'm still expecting i'd wake up and realize that it's all just a dream. haha. to all, thank you! shet parang nanalo lang sa famas. :D

i'll be starting by last week of august, so i still have one more week left being an agent. i never thought i would say this but, i will miss taking calls. yep, i'll miss the petiks time, the 3 days off.. and of course the people on the floor.

but then im excited - and nervous, too. excited that i would meet new people, nervous that i won't meet their expectations. at times i would suddenly think, what the hell did i just get myself into? haha!

good luck na lang sakin. :)

it's past 3:00 in the morning right now and it's raining hard. you'd think with this weather i would just fall right back to sleep, but i can't.

i've never felt so alone. and i don't mean that literally.

what does he mean when he says, "pabayaan na lang natin ang isa't isa. give up na ko" ? when i asked him he simply said, "para walang away."

does it mean he will care less of me now? or does it mean he has been doing that and we're nearing the end?