walang kokontra!

game over

Thu, 22 Oct 2009 09:58:17 GMT

just like my so-called relationship, this is the end for this blog. as painful as it is, i need to let go of certain things in my life.

message me in ym if you want to know my new blog address. thanks.

after the "happy pill" effect wears off

Thu, 17 Sep 2009 22:48:40 GMT

don't get me wrong, i still feel blessed that i was given this opportunity. but now i'm also feeling the down side of everything.

i now realize that no matter how many times i explained something, there are people who just won't get it. and if they misunderstood something you said, you will be quoted and tell everyone that you explained it incorrectly. i now found out what my friends actually meant before when they told me, "be nice to your trainees. hindi lahat ng tao kasing-talino mo."

and lastly, i'm now discovering that it is hard to balance a successful career and a healthy relationship. somebody help me. nahihirapan ako. :(

still can't believe it

Sun, 16 Aug 2009 18:22:21 GMT

it seems so unreal.. but i think i was the only one doubting myself all along. i tried to keep quiet about it just so it won't be that much embarrassing or disappointing if i failed. but i didn't fail- i actually got the position. unbelievable. :)

im finding it hard to believe not because i think i lack the abilities, but because it was a really tough competition. i had to psyche myself up that no matter how good i think i am, i cant always get what i want. i guess i had luck on my side this time.

im so touched with how much support and encouragement i got from my family, my supervisor, team mates, friends and ken. it's just so overwhelming to hear how much they believe in me. honestly, i'm still expecting i'd wake up and realize that it's all just a dream. haha. to all, thank you! shet parang nanalo lang sa famas. :D

i'll be starting by last week of august, so i still have one more week left being an agent. i never thought i would say this but, i will miss taking calls. yep, i'll miss the petiks time, the 3 days off.. and of course the people on the floor.

but then im excited - and nervous, too. excited that i would meet new people, nervous that i won't meet their expectations. at times i would suddenly think, what the hell did i just get myself into? haha!

good luck na lang sakin. :)

rainy monday

Sun, 12 Jul 2009 20:26:32 GMT

it's past 3:00 in the morning right now and it's raining hard. you'd think with this weather i would just fall right back to sleep, but i can't.

i've never felt so alone. and i don't mean that literally.

questions

Sat, 04 Jul 2009 21:54:04 GMT

what does he mean when he says, "pabayaan na lang natin ang isa't isa. give up na ko" ? when i asked him he simply said, "para walang away."

does it mean he will care less of me now? or does it mean he has been doing that and we're nearing the end?

officially in my mid-20's.

Wed, 01 Jul 2009 04:25:58 GMT

wah.

i wonder if birthday wishes still come true at this age? lol.

mixed emotions

Mon, 29 Jun 2009 07:52:29 GMT

how does an ex-"kabit" supposed to react when she finds out the guy she used to care about suddenly passed away? does she have the right for grief? or should she just be thankful it was all over when this happened?

thank you for the memories m. i'm sorry i wasn't able to talk to you for the past few months. but you know i didn't regret anything that happened - especially meeting you. i still couldn't believe you're gone.. there's so much more you could have done. :( i 'm sure you're in a better place than us.

for you.. i never really knew what to tell you then, and even now.. except - i'm really sorry for your loss..

so many things on my mind

Sat, 06 Jun 2009 22:07:45 GMT

... and yet i cant find the words to express them. :(

so out of the loop

Sat, 11 Apr 2009 20:01:48 GMT

ang tagal tagal ko nang di nag oonline, wala na ko sa sirkulasyon. haha. at ang haba haba na ng tinype ko kanina, pero nawala. amp. galeng talaga.

anyway, nag give in na ko sa peer pressure at meron na din akong face book account lol! kaso di ko naman nachecheck regularly so good luck.

im going back to bora this last weekend of april! yey! cant wait to go to the beach. :D

osya, nagonline lang ako para magpaantok.. sleep mode na.

first day

Sun, 01 Mar 2009 01:55:13 GMT

it's the first official day of my one week vacation. yey! vl kung vl haha. inuubos ko na since di naman babayaran yun samen.. buti na lang talaga naapprove. ilang buwan na rin ako lagi denied ha, it's about time. sarap... balak ko mag paka bum lang sa bahay, mag online at matulog. haha. nanghiram din ako ng book sa officemate ko, excited na ko basahin yun kasi maganda feedback na nababasa ko about dun.. at syempre, super spend time with my sweetie. hihi. wee! ;p